A little bit lost I guess

Hello all.
Erm, ok. So for a few years, I have felt very down a lot. I can be flying high as a kite on moment and the next I am upset. My head going a mile a minute sort of thing with thoughts that make me even more upset.
Anyway, today I was prescribed anti depressants, and I guess I should be happy that after years of telling no one how I feel, I am finally getting help. But I dunno. I just feel, now I am on them, maybe, talking to the doctor, I was exaggerating, and shouldn't be on them. Like I shouldn't be on them.
My doc thinks I should, and maybe counciling, but I guess I kinda feel guilty because I have a friend who is a lot more depressed then I am, and I got my tablets first, and like, I feel guilty about it.
And then, I kinda feel like, being on the tablets confirms there is something wrong in my head.
I dunno. Sorry, I just needed somewhere to get it out.
Thanks, and sorry for being morbid

sometimes that all you need to do is just write your feelings down. If you don't think you should be on the anti depressant then don't take it for a little bit and see if you feel different.


You might also want to try and not hang around friends that are depressing. It will only bring you down and give you ideas on what to be depressed about.


What makes you happy? Seriously. It could be anything. eating an apple. Watching t.v. Working out. hell it could even be masturbating haha. What ever it is that makes you happy. Do it. even if it seems ridiculous, just do it for yourself.

appleandlime wrote:

I dunno. Sorry, I just needed somewhere to get it out.
Thanks, and sorry for being morbid

Never be sorry for how you feel, thats what soulspeak was created for we can handle it!
Medication can make you feel strange things sometimes its not your fault. Meds personally made me feel suicidal so I had to quit, they didn't really help me and I refuse to take anymore of them I had to do self therapy which doesn't work when your by yourself strangely so I trusted in a higher power. But all I can say is if you feel like you don't need them then you should stop taking them, but If you feel like you don't deserve them then thats not a reason to stop taking them, you might just need them for a while just to help you see the greener grass on the other side then stop taking them, but they do some strange things to the emotions do, but it can help. Give it some time as a friend once said let it paint your emotions in black and white then make a decision and we're always here.